I am a slave to this, I am a masochist

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This just makes me think of Colin and Bradley. 

And now a rant, because I'm feeling ranty. 

Why is it such a big deal that I don't like 'The Classics'? The only two I've read that I've actually enjoyed have been 1984 and Frankenstein. I don't seek them out on my own because they don't interest me. Most of them don't even have plot. 

I've always had very specific tastes when it comes to books and that hasn't changed. Those tastes have. I read a lot more sci-fi and gay literature now. But even then I hate Tolkein. His books kind of hit you over the head with the Christianity as do most other fantasy novels from that time period. I know, I was forced to read them. Not to mention his writing makes me want to bash my head into a wall.

It's not sad that I don't like these books. It's doesn't make me any less smart or educated. It just means I have different tastes and interests then most other people. I don't love literature. I love history and there my interests have pretty much reached Molly Houses. How much more specific can you get? 

There are so many things I want to read. You should see my rec lists. I don't want to waste my time suffering through books I won't like and have no interest in. I was forced to read them in high school and college and I'm not going to do it to myself now. I'm not that much of a masochist.

Please tell me I'm not alone in this.

FUCK YOU TWILIGHT AND THE FUCKING IMPACT YOU HAVE ON MY LIFE.

I HAVE EVERY FUCKING RIGHT TO JUDGE STEPHENIE MEYER FOR BIENG A MORMAN AND INFLICTING HER FANATICAL BELIEFS ON CHILDREN.

I HAVE EVERY FUCKING RIGHT TO NOT AGREE WITH RELIGIOUS FANATICS AND TO NOT READ THEIR BOOKS BECAUSE OF THAT. THE TWO GO HAND IN HAND. ORSON SCOTT CARD WAS A HOMOPHOBE AND HE WROTE HOMOPHOBIC LITERATURE. OBVIOUSLY I'M NOT GOING TO SUPPORT THAT.

I WILL NOT SUPPORT ANTI-GAY ORGANIZATIONS OR PEOPLE, REGARDLESS OF HOW BIG A GLOBAL PHENOMENON THEY ARE.

NOT TO MENTION THE ABSTINENCE ONLY STANCE THOSE BOOKS TAKE AND HOW DEGRADING THEY ARE TO WOMEN AND FEMALE CHARACTERS IN GENERAL. THERE IS A REASON THAT THE ISSUE OF STRONG FEMALE CHARACTERS IN SCIENCE FICTION AND FANTASY IS SUCH A BIG DEAL AND YOU ARE NOT FUCKING HELPING MATTERS STEPHENIE MEYER.

I DON'T WANT TO READ ABOUT A TEENAGE GIRL WHO MOANS AND PINES AND CAN'T FUCKING GET SOME. I WAS THAT FUCKING GIRL AND I DON'T WANT TO RELIVE IT. IF I WANT TO ACT LIKE A 16 YEAR OLD GIRL I'LL LOOK AT STARK SANDS. AT LEAST THAT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD INSIDE.

THE POINT IS THE WOMAN CANNOT WRITE AND IT SHOULD FUCKING END THERE. I'VE READ FANFICTION WRITTEN BY 12 YEAR OLDS THAT WAS BETTER THAN THAT DRIVEL. PLUS I'D LIKE HER TO ACT LIKE A FUCKING ADULT. 40 YEAR OLD WOMEN SHOULD NOT GET UPSET AND REFUSE TO PUBLISH SOMETHING BECAUSE IT LEAKED ONLINE, EVERYONE SAID IT WAS TERRIBLE AND MADE HER GO CRY IN A CORNER. IF YOU WERE ACTUALLY FUCKING SMART YOU WOULD TAKE THIS AS A SIGN AND GO BACK TO THE HOLE YOU CAME OUT OF.

I ALSO REALLY HATE FUCKING VAMPIRES. I HATE THAT SOCIETY THINKS WOMEN LIKE THEM BECAUSE THEY WANT TO SLEEP WITH GAY MEN. HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT EVEN MAKE SENSE? I DON'T WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH GAY MEN I WANT TO SEE THEM HAVE SEX WITH EACH OTHER. THERE'S A FUCKING DIFFERENCE.

AND JUST FUCKING BECAUSE....ADAM LAMBERT: GO FUCKING DIE. I'M SO SICK OF YOU AND YOUR MICHAEL JACKSON FACE THAT MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM IN TERROR. AND YOU SUPPORT THIS CRAP.


AND TODAY STARTED OUT SO WELL...

Went to go see HBP at midnight last night with my friend Shaina. I should have done this when I got home, but it was already 3:30 when I got home and into bed. 

( Possibly spoilerly thoughts... )

I'll leave you with my current favorite picture of Rupert.

Okay I LOVE Harry Potter. 

I love Rupert Grint.

I can't wait for Half-Blood Prince.

If only to see Rupert in Quidditch gear.

But really, the movies are terrible. 

Dan and Emma make me cry with some of their acting choices sometimes. And NOT in a good way. I'm watching Prisoner of Azkaban right now on ABC Family and every time I see it I try to figure out whose idea it was to make Lupin so OOC. It's actually painful to watch some of those scenes. I think David Thewlis could have done an amazing job if they just gave him better material. 

Gripe over. Maybe I'll watch Order. It's been awhile and it doesn't make me scream. Much.

As someone who lives and has gone to school in two states where gay marriage was legalized in the last year, this crap in California has reached a level of ridiculousness that I just can't stand. 

The world has not ended, pigs have not started to fly and if hell existed it has not frozen over. In the immortal words of the Stonewall project: Gay people exist, get the FUCK over it. Move on and deal with your own failing relationships and marriages and stop worrying about everyone else's. 

THE END.

Everyone in my life is seriously way out of control. Which is making me even more out of control.

My day included getting in a huge fight with my mom on the phone that resulted in me hanging up on her.

And just now getting into a huge fight with one of my 'friends' about how ridiculous he's been all year and me eventually kicking him out of my apartment. But apparently I have no right to voice my opinion to him even when it concerns me. Whatever.

Someone please get me out of the state of Vermont right now! 

I'm sitting in my friend's dorm room while her and our other friend discuss and write poetry. I LOATHE poetry. I want to read slashy porn.

I also need a fucking drink. Why are all the liquor stores closed? ;(