atticlibrarian | A rant...

I'm well aware that I'm the black sheep of my family. I'm okay with it. I just wish my family would realize that fact and let me be. Just because I'm the oldest cousin by 10 years does NOT mean that I have to be an example. Frankly the world could use a little more blunt honesty and so could this family. I'm sick of being the only one who sees that and then gets yelled at for doing something about it.

I think the fact that I don't go off on my step-father when he makes his daily homophobic comment would be enough.

Also I hate my grandmother. She needs to get off her pedestal and realize we're not the people she wants us to be and we're never going to be. I don't believe in your religious fiction, I swear, I drink, I party, I'm honest, I'm blunt, I'm sarcastic and I say what I'm thinking and that's never going to change. Your husband understood that, why can't you?

If you want me to be an example to your kids, how about this lesson? Don't change who you are because other people have a problem with it. This world is filled with way too many people who play into societies wishes and you don't have to be one of them. This world is never going to change if no one challenges the status quo. Talk about politics and the state of the world and realize how fucked up it is. Don't be simple, don't be complacent and don't let others get away with bigoted remarks. Don't censor yourself and don't let yourself be lulled into a false sense of reality. One day you'll be in the real world where everything isn't apple pie. Realize it now and educate yourself. Question what you're told. Don't censor yourself and don't encourage it in other places. Talk to people, argue with them, open their minds and have them open yours.

People may not like you for it, but it's usually because they see something in you that they want to be and are too afraid to do anything about or they're just afraid you might burst the little bubble they've built.